5) what part of self harm do you dislike the most?
Probably being paranoid 24/7 that someone will see it or ask about it.
Even though I regret every one of them, my scars mean a lot to me.
4) Do you consider yourself addicted? Why or why not?
I don’t know to be honest. It’s not an everyday thing but I think having scars is some weird source of comfort maybe? Like I get really uncomfortable when my scars start to fade. Am I the only one? I only cut when I need to feel some sort of release or when I get really down on myself (which is kind of a lot). So I guess I’m not “”addicted”“?
Scrolling through the recovery tag makes me feel horrible because I see so many people getting better when I have no motivation to. It also makes me feel bad because I find it hard to be happy for them. I’m actually a horrible person.
I don’t understand why people ask what happened to my wrists. You obviously know the answer and it doesn’t matter what I end up telling you; both of us will know I’m telling a bullshit lie.
3) What is your motivation to recover?
Still looking for one